I Couldn't Go Through With The Breakup

I couldn't go through with the "breakup".

          I thought I could let go.

                    I thought I needed a fresh clean slate.

                              I thought I needed a fresh start.

I mean, the one I've been with for the last 25 years was getting old, worn out,

and was barely hanging on.

I thought I needed a new Bible!

Y'all didn't think I was trading Jim in, did you? 😉 Never!  He has been around longer than that Bible!

My poor Bible literally is celebrating a quarter of a century.  The binding is falling apart and the pages are worn. So I thought it would be nice to get a new one. I went online and looked, but just wasn't sure from the pictures.  I was looking for something specific.  

This time I wanted a study Bible, but I wanted to be able to journal too. Oh! and I need large print!🔍

So when I was in Tenesee I went to the Christin bookstore and spent about an hour ⏳ opening Bibles.  I think I opened every one! But I walked out without one.  This was a big commitment for me.

Then I went back online. 

Then to our Bible Outlet here in Myrtle Beach.  Honestly, for almost an hour. Opening each one. Once again left empty-handed. But I did see one I thought I would go back for.

Ladies, I'm a girl who does not have a problem shopping!

But I knew this was a special purchase. This next one could be part of my morning routine for the next 25 years!

I went back one more time and picked one! I was excited! It was new with fresh pages!

Side by side they looked alike with similar covers.

But then I got a little sad. 😢

I loved the idea of this new Bible and fresh pages to write, but the truth is my old one is my story.

It's where I keep sweet notes of encouragement that are near and dear to my heart, even though the binding is completely torn apart.

It's full of different colored highlights, notes, and underlining.

It is where I documented scriptures and where I would hang onto promises, words people gave me, prayers, and lamentations.

Like...

When I was away in recovery from the darkest time of my life and my daughter gave me a scripture to hang on to. Next to Deuteronomy 31:6 I wrote,  "9/15/16 From Megan" ❤️

Yeah, that might have something to do with this ⬇️

Some of the handwritten notes in the margins...

Pages upon pages of 25 years of highlighted promises, God's goodness and faithfulness through the good times and the darkest.  He was always there, loving me through His Word!

Sometimes our rescue stories are written in the midst of the worn-out pages and broken parts.

So, I couldn't go through with "the breakup".

Which Bible am I using?

Both!  When I am just reading I hold dearly to old faithful, even tattered and torn.  And when I want to study a little more, I use my new one. That is the beauty! They both offer something valuable!

Ladies spend some time in God's Word today.  Let His Words be a soothing balm to your soul!